I didn’t notice until just now how much of a contrast this photo is from the last one. But I guess it might as well be.

I need to learn to let go of things, to stop over thinking, and to start acting instead of being frozen in my thought.

Let’s see how this all plays out.

I can’t believe it’s come to this.

Please, please, please don’t hate me. Or look upon the past with regret.

(Just a clarification, this isn’t in reference to myself. I’ve just been wanting my photographs to have more meaning, and so I thought I’d try my hand at a little symbolism).

Every man is born as many men and dies as a single one.
-Martin Heidegger

I’ve felt so alienated from everyone around me. I just don’t know if the problem rests on those who were near to to me, or if the fault is ultimately my own.

I think I’ve been really drawn to noises and sounds lately. I’ve been listening to tracks of the sea on YouTube to help me write a creative writing piece for class on Odysseus. And it’s been raining for a couple of days. I love the sound of the rain.

drip, Drip.

Gently; gently, dear.

I want to inhabit your dreams.
To infect your mind with thoughts so vivid
they seep into your subconscious
and surface in symptoms unwonted.
Then waking, I desire to be your Addiction,
your dilated pupils, focusing on
one thing and One alone.
I want your affection,
your attention, and admiration.
Your jealousy, your passion, your anger.
I want your being,
I want it all.
My desire is for you to be lost in my world,
confused and dizzy, terrified and stunned,
engulfed and enraptured.
Forget your own world, come join in
My own. I want your hopes,
your aspirations, I want you
To dream of nothing else.
Then in being in me (lost in the world
I have created),
You and I will become One,
We, Us.
And no longer will we speak of
anything else, because there will be
Nothing.
Nothing of You and I,
Nothing else,
us.

I want you to feel what I do. I want you to understand.